Friday, September 29, 2006

m so tired now...
wat the hell was i thinking?
why did i put 'ANYTIME'?
hais... im a crazy gal.

the coming week one even better.
thurs -opening
fri -off
sat - off
sun - off
mon - opening
tues - opening
wed - opening

i wonder how many days will they gif mi.
haha...
oh well..
actually put for fun oso la..
since i got nth better to do at hm anyway.

butterfly fantasy at
1:23 AM

Thursday, September 28, 2006

5th sept?
is tt it?
yup... i think its ard there..
i wanted to be there so much.
for you.
u din wan mi to.
as long as u enjoyed tt day...

butterfly fantasy at
4:20 AM

today on the train.
i realise time stops for no1.
of cos there are times when i hope they will jus fast forward till when i'm 80 or something.
on the bed.
ready to cross over.
but today.
i jus hope time stops.
stop for a while to let mi think wat i've been doing wif my life.
rite now, im not living life.
life is living mi.
im oways catching up wif time.
so clueless.
of cos ppl will love the morning rush or the feeling of being rushed la.
tt is wat i learn from imf.
but im rushing without knowing wat im doing.
wat is this lil head of mine thinking?
n wat is this emo heart of mine feeling?
but then, how many ppl actually know wat they are doing?
oh well... contridicting again.

contridicting reminds mi of being a Gemini.
my mum is a Gemini too.
so i guess... that is why....
why she is so siao siao sumtimes.
i think i will grow up to b like her.
so if i don like wat she is doing now.
does tt mean i don like myself?
she is toking to her again.
i mean after almost 3 yrs?
haha... life n its stupid games.
but i think mum is trying too hard.
we survive those 3 yrs din we?
while on the other hand,
i jus cant be bothered abt those stuff.
mi n her nv tok anymore.
it used to hurt alot.
so much so tt... when one thing reminds mi of her.
i changed.
well.. not anymore.
perhaps... i will feel this way too for him after 3 yrs?
anyway...
if he's happy now.
wat more can i wish for?

i jus don like to do those superficial stuff la.
like asking 'how r u?' when i don even care abt ur ans.
hais... but life or rather humans are superficial so
in the end, i still have to do it.

life sucks. take mine away anytime...

butterfly fantasy at
3:27 AM

is it love?
or is it pinning too much hope on sum1 but feelings are not reciprocated?
and unable to accept that, u hold on & on & on?

argghhh... why is it still so complicated when its long over?

im sorry for not being truthful.
oways be true....

everytime i see you im alive..
you're all i've got
you lift me up.
the sun n moonlight
all my dreams are in your eyes
^^

butterfly fantasy at
2:54 AM

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

today jus suck.
sorry jac!
haiyo...
i din noe... today was gg to be a so dots.. de.

well... anw.. got the shorts.
dinner wif kian.
tt's abt it.

i still cant braid my hair.
-.-''

work tml again.
wonder if its good.
as in i dono the staff there liao.
so sian....

you nv ask...

when others are asking..

you jus keep quiet abt it.

. . .

butterfly fantasy at
9:39 PM

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

why am i feeling this way?
it cant be...

butterfly fantasy at
1:03 AM

Monday, September 25, 2006

My Immortal Lyrics
by Evanescence

i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

[chorus]

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
i held your hand through all of these years
but you still haveall of me
you used to captivate meby your resonating life
now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me
these wounds won't seem to health
is pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

[chorus]

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
i've been alone all along

[chorus]

butterfly fantasy at
1:54 PM

Queensway Shooping Centre rocks sia.
i wan the shorts n the top.
haha.
Uncle F.M got 2 shirts.
Kian got 1 shirt which i loveeeee too. (wanna spons?)
n his vball shoes.
And may i add, they are very very happy!

too bad the BKT no more liao...
wanted to eat wif kian de...
ended up eating free BCM wif tons of chilli.
I had to go toilet this morning la...
den i almost black out.
sldnt put chilli anymore.
And so, i din buy my notice board yet.
hais... everything haf to pay for myself.
r they blind as to not to see wat job m i doing?
even if i go every week, i wld onli get 120.
-.-
i think they are blind la.
but i cant do anything oso..
so suan le.

Took shuttle bus home from IKEA.
Actually from AMK to IKEA quite fast lei..
wanted to slp on the bus de.
den realise gg to reach liao.
no point.
-.-

I ve oways wanted to do tt.
i nv had the courage.
but last nite i did.
n the result was the same.
perhaps it will nv b the same anymore.
i jus cant bear to throw it away.

butterfly fantasy at
1:20 PM

Saturday, September 23, 2006

Imf ended.
Friends are made.
Cute year Ones.
Silly FMs.
Cant wait for 17th Oct to meet them again.
n him la... haha.. but i got a feeling he wun be coming la.
or even if he do come, we wun get to tok.
My gut feeling has oways been accurate.
so no promises for pics ok!

aiyah... gut feeling hor..
have, i feel sad.
sad becos wat i felt n came true are mostly not very good stuff.
don haf i wish i haf a clue.
from the past to present.
Like how i noe things will not work out for us.
To knowing i will not b seeing him in the rest area.
or knowing i will see him in the rest area.
hais...
watever the case,
this tell u ppl tt gals 6th sense is very accurate ok!

Perhaps after 20yrs,
there will be another gathering
'S2006 after 20yrs'
by den, i will be old. wrinkles.
haha.. mayb wif babies. mayb not.
oh man... i realise im geting random.
bleah.
okok..

so after wed, work on thurs again!
at jimmy neutron.
wif kian n isk.
wif my pillars around, of cos im slacking la.
haha..
but i had fun.
sadly, this fri de onli got one space left.
n kind isky gave tt space to mi.
haha...
after working, although we are all sticky n smelly.
jac n mi... we STILL headed down to marina sq.
how many times haf we been there?
haha...
den we finally got our first LEVIS.
whoots! new arrival summore lei!
same design, same color.
i realise this week tt jac n mi haf the same taste.
u make a good shopping partner!
if u r not tired of trying the clothes la!!
haha..

so now, basically im even more broke den i m before.
so pls if u guys got lobang on work hor.
intro!!
hehee...

And so fri woke up very late.
thanks to sum1 who failed to wake mi up the nite b4.
-.-
haha... aiyah... since u already acc mi study n go for the test.
i forgive u liao. :x
so u are the first one who know the good news.
but sadly, u were not amazed. or happy for moi.
huh. duno sld b happy or sad lei.
cos hor tt means u got confident in mi lei.
but u aint sharing my joy.
except for tt ice cream.
onli 2 ppl noes abt this.
and they are my 2 pillars.
can we pls keep it to ourselves first?
sun celebration ok?
make it a delayed celebration for all of us ok?
we haven celebrate our ALL PASS in our exams also lei..
i wan FUN FUN FUN.
ecp soon?

aza... don mia!
i don wan things to change!
nx week ok?

aiyah.. now u working shift work.
kian working too. plus got vball training n his fav past time - fishing.
isky acc gf n work his sg mint.
wa got his 18 or 19 movies. which he don wanna share!!
aiyo~
y u all so busy de ar?
haha...

butterfly fantasy at
6:43 PM

Thursday, September 21, 2006

i will make this entry short n sweet.

his name is alvin.
chinese. (i knew it!~)
president of ... some club la...
third yr SP student.
quiet n shy.

he din come today.
but his friends are very enthu abt tis.
-.-

sliva or sumthing is funny.
i think he kinda reminds mi of isky.

dinner is ok.. cos mb i duno how to apreciate the food la.

levis services suck.

tt's all.

good nite ppl.

Thrills?

butterfly fantasy at
12:26 AM

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

One more thing.
Im so glad my 2 pillars are with me.
thank God.
=D

n i realli cant wait to see my eye candy.
heehee...

butterfly fantasy at
12:47 AM

and before i forget.
two mint sweets fell into the sg river.
killing a few fishes.
the killer is still at large.

butterfly fantasy at
12:32 AM

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Tml is the last day of IMF.
10 days flew by just like tt.
finally our legs can rest.
finally we can slp longer.
finally we don haf to crack our heads cos we haf 2hrs breaks.
but finally... jus when we got use to this routine...
everything is coming to an end.

There were so many stupid funny amazing things that happened.
From being a cripple, to using ossim chairs, to visiting isk at his booth, to cracking heads during breaks, to searching for eye candy, aiyoooo uncountable.

Classic one: "Xiao jie wo mei you kong, (pass mi name card). Call me."
damn dots.

hais... last day means last day to see eye candy.
sld i carry out my plan?
even though i say i will...
i think i will not la.
like dian so long liao...
today also dian.
dian dian dian until i dian dao other ppl.
-.-
ok la... this shall be another interesting thing tt happen to mi during IMF.

oh ya.... BOOM BOOM BOOM!!!
Fireworks with a view!!
at first i saw tt edge near Merlion litted up.
den i ask jac wat was tt...
as in so far the delegates also cant see, light it up for wat rite?
den BOOM BOOM BOOM.
Jo was shocked la..
everyone moved back.
cos it was VERY VERY CLOSE.
Jac was like stun too.
cant see eve...
haha...
may i emphasis again...
CLOSE. VERY VERY UP CLOSE & PERSONAL.
i will never get this view again.
n the person i wanna watch it with wasnt there...
empty feeling...
but it was worth the walk.
if only you were there...

Actually... i oso wanna be wif him my dear...
but can we? nope.
wat can we do? nothing.
memories are to be kept in our hearts remember?
we are moving on, remember?
Don look back... its really no point.
stay strong, we are all here wif u..
=)

butterfly fantasy at
11:53 PM

Monday, September 18, 2006

i tried.... so many jeans today can.
but i still love tt jeans la.
isky becos of u. i wanna buy tt jeans
BECOS OF YOU!

ended work very early.
but i think i need to make up for it tml la...
the bad thing abt this imf is.. the timing is oways unknown.
you onli get to know wat time u end when ur FM tells you.

tis morn i tot work will be very boring...
den when i came back from pan pac.
i was elated!!
there he was.
haha.. wif his yellow crumpleR bag.
hehe...
but tdy he looked at jac.
TWICE.
4 drinks jac~
haha..

hais...
sian...
i wanna go shopping.
where is the money?!

butterfly fantasy at
9:46 PM

today... damn slack la..
very slack.. for jac n mi.
we went shopping for 4hrs.

we were at pan pac doing....nth.
haha... den tt song came on..
i almoooost lost it.

anw, WU suddenly appear when i was in the rest area.
when i jus woke up. the timing jus nice.
den mi n jac face each other. haha...

den when we went back to the rest area after the shopping break.
there he was again.
but not b4 i ... em... let's jus say i made jac a happy gal tdy.
i was stunned too la~
y i like dat ar?
oh man...
too engross~~~~

my position is perfect. perfect view.
he went out den i suddenly siao siao follow him out.
but den i din get to see him la.
he jus disappeared.
den when i came back into the area.
wahaha... he was looking at mi la...
even jac saw it.
n she 'told' me.
but u think i wun notice meh?
tt pair of eyes.. so big. looking at mi.
haha.. oh ya oh ya.. almost bang onto him near toilet. cos it was em.. too squeezy.

but den jac told mi... n he used hp... n .... oh well... don care.
i like the feeling he gives mi when he's ard.
it was a long forgotten feeling...
tt i missed.

tml..will i see u again?

butterfly fantasy at
12:11 AM

Friday, September 15, 2006

i jus found out a sweet lil bigger than mi by 10days sister did a very sweet thing for mi.
i felt it was for mi la... cos it applies.
but den i din realli noe it was FOR MI la...
thanks!
but u noe.. sumtimes i duno if u are really into thrill or jus haven put the other one down yet.
but thanks ya.. im touched.
n working hard...

there's this one thing tt happen today tt i wanna say.
u dun haf to go one big round to 'shoot' mi la.
jus becos we cant communicate well n thus u got the wrong meaning...
doesnt realli gif u the right to 'shoot' mi back.
-.-
abit tired keeping up the pretence la.
5 more days~
i prefer the plan now to sit in the room.
cos my darling soulmate is there...
so easy toking to u la.
oh man... i think i will miss u when the whole thing ends..
cos i realise we nv go out tgt de..
shall we try?
wed is the last day n wed is ...
if u noe mi den u noe wat wed is la...
haha...
ask our 'sister' along !

okies... a lil of interesting thing from the event.
i saw him. a WU guy. but others do not see wat i see la.
its tt aura again. the aura i see in him before.
his side profile damn attractive to mi la..
i can jus stare for hours i think.
he likes to listen to songs too.
he have a crumple yellow bag.
he likes to dress in black.
or is tt his uni colour?
he has the malay malay look. (again..~)
he looks man when he folds tt sleeve up.
he looks familiar... except he has more build.
suddenly feel like calling out tt name to see if he's him.
i never hear his voice b4.
don even noe his actual race. haha...
but we accidentally dian each other twice.
haha... i hope i got dian dao him la.
opps... hehe...
n i caught him looking at moi direction when i was looking at tt gal.
whoots!
but its jus a passing thing la.
paths does not cross at all...
n i mei you yi tai when i powl over the table to slp.
oh well... its jus an interest during this event la.
haha...

its jus one of those things tt keeps life going...

oh ya... i wan tt GUESS top so much... but i onli will get the 30% if i hit $150.
anyone wanna share?
i wan i wan~~

butterfly fantasy at
11:50 PM

Thursday, September 14, 2006

For the Fun, Joy & Laughter.

This shall be our group motto ok!!!

butterfly fantasy at
3:28 PM

im bored lei...
skipping imf is not a good choice.
hais....
n i still need to produce a MC.
-.-
why volunteer need to produce Mc ar?

wah.. i jus put my lappy on my tummy to type hor.
n the heat from the lappy is damn nice for my tummy la..
shiok.

woke up 2 plus cos my cramps damn bad la...
den hug my pillow to sleep again.
den alarm went off 5am.
woke up bath and call jac to say im not gg.
-.-
i seriously duno wat the hell i was doing la.
msged esther.
den went back to slp.

i tot i slept till very late la...
but guess wat. it was onli 11 plus when i woke up.
i seriously duno wat im doing lei...
sldnt i slp more?
crazy mi.

den i slacked wif mobtv n bu yao shou bao qian till now.
hais... the others gg shopping n eating.
im not gg. i din noe until isk called mi la...
-.-
oh well... rest..
in peace.

zai ji mo li shang bei

butterfly fantasy at
2:12 PM

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

its 13th again...
how fast time past...
continue this way pls.
haha..

butterfly fantasy at
12:31 AM

Imf makes mi tired...
the food doesnt taste tt nice too..
but if dun grumble den still can eat la.
furthermore... im broke.
Im legs are numb for now.
Pain till numb liao.
Acutally was already numb on Mon la..
but see the gang hor! Mi damn happy so din felt it until i reach hm la!
Nasi Ayam at hougang plaza is the best!!
Becos i don realli take chilli.
Kian Loves it too la.
but the rest say not very nice lei....
its the chilli onli ma... Next time we tabao the lucky plaza chilli to hougang eat la!
if that pleases all of u la!
My dear isky came down to look for mi on Mon la.
He damn kuku la... haha
kena police check until like tt
haha..
n isky, u bring mi to the wrong way la!
haha!!
After eating our nasi ayam, went to play pool a while..
long time no play liao.. suddenly gian again. but broke now. haha. shitty.
isk vs kian. isky lost. heart pain cos i luff too hard. no la... i heart pain isky lead A WHILE and kian caught up. Isky i support u la! (even thou u said wat u said in ur blog hor!)
WIPE THAT IRRITATING SMUG OFF KIAN'S FACE K!

no win TOTO. but r we giving up?
haha...

went hm n isky slept like a baby la...

Second day at imf is BORING too la...
no cases except for tt JS guy. damn cute la.
he wanted to scan den we gave him this no.
tt operator gave him another no.
so he called.
n guess wat?
he said "Oh Jesus, tt's my own helpdesk!"
haha... so cute.

I missed the gang la....
one day no see how to survive 3 autumn?
(correct anot?)
Aza!! when ur off day in the 21-27 week ar?? mus let mi noe hor...
n kian too! cos he can request off. den off we go to ecp.
I promise i will keep up. haha. i drag u this time k?
i think u drag mi alot the last time lei.
and hor take good care of ur toes pls.
I miss miss liao la...~

butterfly fantasy at
12:13 AM

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Sat - Went work. Check the stuff fast fast. But duno y still cant complete lei...
hais.. sian.. Im hoping i am not needed in IMF nx sat. So i can msg boss n tell her i will b able to make it for work. Besides... im realli keen in signing up the class.
Every Saturday. 3-4pm. That means no more skating? or mayb a lil bit later skating k!
So went stra8 to bedok to meet kian first for lunch. Budget Budget 1.90 nasi lemak. den we went to buy TOTO. I hope at least 4 numbers open man....
Was actually quite sian at first cos tired den dun feel like skating. But man... after a while of screaming n yelling n getting used to on the skates... whoots!~
We skated to Changi safra. but hor... i fell like 3 times.
record breaking.
the first time is due to unknown reasons n im still amazed at how i managed to fall stra8. -.-
the 2nd n 3rd time is due to being WAH by Wah! humph. n aza kian was happily luffing away can!
im still a liability but try harder nx time can catch up wif them liao!
dinner at bedok again. Wah ate chay kuay tiao!
pls eat more.
I wan more HUM!! i wan i wan... pls... lets go open those shells!!

butterfly fantasy at
1:27 PM

Saturday, September 09, 2006

The greatest invention of all times is not cup noodles...
its SONGS.
esp.. one tt fits ur mood perfectly.
=)
Garry send mi this song sometime back.
it fits.. perfectly.

What Hurts The Most

i can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
that don't bother me
i can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
i'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
even though going on with you gone still upsets me
there are days every now and again i pretend i'm ok
but that's not what gets me

what hurts the most
was being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
and never knowing
what could have been
and not seeing that loving you
is what i was tryin' to do

it's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go
but i'm doin' it
it's hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and i'm alone
still harder
getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
but i know if i could do it over
i would trade give away all the words that i saved in my heart
that i left unspoken

what hurts the most
is being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
and never knowing
what could have been
and not seeing that loving you
is what i was trying to do

what hurts the most
is being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
and never knowing
what could have been
and not seeing that loving you
is what i was trying to do

not seeing that loving you
that's what i was trying to do


So many what ifs and if onlys in this world...
how much are you willing to give in order to go back in time to
fulfill them?

everythingifonlythereisachance..

butterfly fantasy at
12:14 AM

Thursday, September 07, 2006

1 day of IMF = $35
10days of IMF = $350

Im gonna re-perm my hair.
Dye a new color.
Den use the remaining money for...
some things else.
haha...

i jus watched life scent2 on mobtv la...
den i got this urge to watch every epi.
den i take down the fun places and the resturant names.
den we go try ONE by ONE.
cool eh?
haha...

butterfly fantasy at
10:51 PM

Went to have chicken rice yest at lucky plaza.
But i think hor.. hougang plaza taste nicer.
Isky, they use REAL chicken rice.
n it isnt tt expensive.
i wanna bring u there to eat!

After tt, we went over to kallang.
National Stadium.
WHOOTS! The Q..
damn long la...
but lucky still got student ticket.
Isky was like... 'stay close stay close. quick fill up the gap.'
aiyo... u din notice the yellow guy in the front was sticking his hand out meh.
haha...

by the time we got in, it was almost half time liao.
n man... can sg pls attack?
I dun understand the game oso noe u guys are not ATTACKING!!!
Anyway.. im very amazed!!
The crowd! All their hands will move in one direction. And so many black heads turning in one direction!
haha... n kian ar. pls lo.. not i blur blur im jus amazed wif the crowd so i missed tt ball la.
And sum1 was holding a china flag n walking into the Singapore side.
And Sg n China Flag got into a fight! Push push.
hais... pls grow up la..
And may i add... the game is a waste of my 2bucks.
Mayb the future game will be better? haha...
And someone told me sumthing quite sad during the game....
I hope it wun happen la...

Walked all the way to Geylang!
For roti prata and ...... DOU JIANG YOU TIAO!
finally i tried YOU TIAO WANG!
nice nice.... i like the you tiao man!
but the dou jiang is ok la...
msia haf better de.
Ididanotherthingu saiduwill do...
williforgetwhenifinallyfulfilleverything?

Took a bus hm... its freaking slow. S.N.A.I.L SPEED.
n for the last few stops...
there is no1 at the bus stop OR anywhere near the bus stop.
But! the bus driver stopped. open the door and waited..
-.-

Isaw2placesttwewentb4.
irealliwishtohaveselectedmemoryla.
isthetvplayingajokeonmi?

butterfly fantasy at
12:49 PM

Wanted to blog about something... but see no point liao.
Its amazing how a downpour can clear my mood up.
its all smiles again...
Thanks to tt person hu scolded mi ar. Lucky u werent alslp yet.
=)(=

I dun realli care if im faking anot.. cos hor mayb im jus too numb to noe the difference between real n fake.
hehe... does it matter anymore?
As long as im smiling at you when we are toking.
As long as im luffing at all the jokes tt were cracked.
As long as im doing new stuff.
As long as i get by each day...
im counting the blessings already.
Dun expect too much from me.
Accept my sudden stoning..sudden quietness...
its useless to ask mi to stop.
If i have a choice,
i would have wan it to stop long ago.
So if i dont haf a choice...
do u think u haf one?

I noe tml n the future is for me to make good use of.
But i jus wanna move on wif life.. without tt part of me.
tt part is closed.
So im moving ok~

You are already moving on so quickly...
I wish i din haf to turn back..
But do i haf a choice when everywhere i go i see shadows of u?
the memories are grabbing me...
pulling mi back step by step.
when i tot i m moving on...
it takes one brand new pic of u.
tanned, happy and wif her to make mi crumble again.
memories float back.
promises that are left empty.
im trying to fulfill them..
n telling myself..
u were there to fulfill them wif mi.
im living in my own world.
im dreaming of tt world too.
even when im awake.
sometimes i jus wish
i don have to wake up.
its so happy in my sleep.
but sometimes...
i m jus afraid of slping.
cos i noe.. there will b a point when i have to wake up.
if u noe.. after all these months..
im still here, same spot n waiting..
will u turn back?
but knowing u...
i noe u wont.
u are living the life u have oways wanted.
why would u turn back?
But at the end of the day,
wat puzzles me is
is it the memories or u tt is holding me back?
memories i can create again...
but if its u.. like i told u many times b4...
there's no another u. never will have.
but it doesnt really matter la...
im still here alone everyday now.

butterfly fantasy at
2:54 AM

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

I was right to avoid ur blog la...
but i still stupid stupid tot i will b ok.
bullshit.
tt feeling realli sucks...
envy is a sin.
but how can one help it?
Mayb till that day im back in ... ....
den everything will be ok...

i long.. n i wish...

butterfly fantasy at
12:09 AM

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Measure of Men

some things that are said in the show is very true.

Yi Ge Ren De Jing Cai

Fell in love wif this song.
I think i can still do stuff by myself.
and still be happy la..
even though, sum1 thinks tt is very ke lian.
oh well...
but since im a pig...
u think i still need company meh?
i jus need my mud rite.

The story of the Lollipop

How ar? I tot of tt...
n i smiled... n i started thinking impossible stuff.
realli impossible kind.
so why m i still thinking abt it?
haha...
how long ago was tt?
tt nick... tt nite at the playground.. tt song..
oh man...
shoo shoo...

Ni shi wo xin zhong de yi ju jing tan...

butterfly fantasy at
10:32 PM

okies so here is another post for tt sum1 who came a FEW TIMES (god noes how many times u visited yest) yest...
You are out shopping now my dear.
haha... so there's a hint.

my bro pang seh mi today.
i could have gone out wif yan lin la...
but i push it to another day so i could go out wif my stupid idiotic bro.
n he cant even ta bao lunch for mi.
the best part. he ate the left overs for dinner, which im suppose to have for lunch.
so now im eating condense milk wif sugar.
is tt the spelling? u noe u make milo wif tt milk.

so wat m i gg to do next? i wanna book BTT again.
amazing isnt it?
i still wanna go take it.
i wonder how im gg to take my final theory la.
cant even pass my BTT.
i knew everything la...
kian can b the judge.
so why i fail ar?
god noes...

den im gg to iron the clothes, sweep n mop the floor.
be a good gal.
since i've been gg out till quite late these past few days.
n i think im still gg out later la.
im a nite person.
the day doesnt seem appealing anymore.
but if go out at nite hor....
no transport hm!!
hais... sian...

yest had a lil tiny bit of shopping at far east.
i forgot things are not cheap.
i jus bought 2 items.. den cost mi 46 bucks liao.
i cant even cover tt wif my pay la..
oh wait.. i haf no pay. since i haven been working.
dots...

meet up wif the gang for food republic...
isk did tt thing again. whoots! i love it man.
food was jus ok onli.. wanted korean bbq but like very ex- lei...
den isky started making fun of my .......
damn dots la...
n no1 help mi lo!
i was there alone... fending for myself.
kaoz.
wat good friends rite.
slack alil... den off we go!

wed soccer match ya?
oh.. are we supporting china?
or sg ar?
i don even noe...
i cant wait to b sweaty n shouting.
whOo!~

butterfly fantasy at
2:40 PM

Monday, September 04, 2006

Superstar

went down to tpy to support my dear vina.
den i saw zhen feng there.
u all very ONZ hor..
alone also can stand so long.
anw... 12pm noon.
my dear vina will be having his audition.
let me noe the good news okies?

After tt, went to kbox wif aza and wa.
oh man.. aza is a singer.
haha... her pitch very high.
wa, u think too much.
jus sing. haha...
I had fun yest. abit cold la.. but still fun.
haha...
wee kian came and crash our session after his work.
and he sang his fav. Tian Tian Ye Ye.
all this singing make mi gian...
haha...
oh well...

to TB 55 IAP & OIAP ppl:

START WORK LO!
Dun worry! U guys are not forgotten!
See... dinner at wisma on the first day!
=))

i hope u are have fun.. OIAP ppl! update us once in a while ok?
Dun keep having fun onli !
hehe...

U guys are missed.

butterfly fantasy at
10:28 AM

Sunday, September 03, 2006

Guardian Angel

okies.. i cant put my tots into words...
jus... tis.
Those who watched it will know ba.

butterfly fantasy at
3:10 AM

Saturday, September 02, 2006

They have left.

I was suppose to be one of them.
Embarking on a journey.
but i chose to gif it up.
for wat? i duno.

so now im rotting here.
waiting for another day to pass.

oh well.. wish u all best of luck!
Man.. the class has shrank.

Bury mi in a lavander farm..
den i shall be peaceful all eternity.

butterfly fantasy at
3:36 PM

i dreamt of u last nite.
with tt smile, tt touch n tt smell.
so familiar. all of it.
tt smile tt i used to own.
tt touch tt tingles my skin.
n tt smell tt i grew to love.
i din wan to wake up.
god knows when we shall meet again...

but u were gone. as soon as my eyes open wide.
wish i might, forever was then.
when everything was beautiful lying in ur arms.

Gif to me forever.
For watching stars without u, my soul cries
Griefing heart u made mi felt.
Stop the ache like poison,
slowly eating up all tt is left.
Time takes away the pain,
as well as the memories.
the memories i treasure to this very day.
Where are you?
Stop my act.
Lure me out of the darkness,
or all will decay n
finally.. turn to ashes.

butterfly fantasy at
1:53 AM

Friday, September 01, 2006

it came and went

so the long-awaited chalet came and went by.
this is the best grp chalet i ever had.
was abit sad tt i cldnt go buy food wif the rest.
it mus haf been so fun.
when we hold a bbq in the future, pls pls ask mi to go buy food k?

we had the bbq session on the first nite.
cabbed there wif eveline, ruby n kai qi.
$17! imagine if i had to cough out tt sum alone...
piangzzz..

before i knew it, i was back in pasir ris again.
the place i had avoided for so long...
the place i had been so familiar with in the past.
huge changes gg on over there.
i cldnt reg the place already.
but some things remain the same.
the bic shop, the seats, the sea.....
oh well...
the bbq was fun. but duno y i cldnt eat alot lei...
abit not enluff like tt...
so i tot i was too full n went walk walk awhile.
the chairs n table are the same.
the 'scars' left on them are still there.
but the people had changed n gone.
promises are left empty..
too hard to sit dwn anymore so wander off again onli to find eh? i still not hungry lei.
haha..
but aza skills at bbq is good!

after the 9pm show... e show tt ALL the ppl are so after..
we went out to walk walk.
we bought the drinks along too.
heng ar! we bought them along...
haha...
the guys had hell lots of fun playing the drinking water game!
while i had gd company sitting under the stars wif mi.
jus chit chatting and drinking. =)

den we went out for BCM! oh man... the liver... so many!~
i cldnt finish...
so wei an finished mine off too! plus aza's too!
oh man... r u sure u are a SMALL eater?

den we slept awhile in the chalet. i was the first to K.O la... i saw tt bed. so tempting.
and i even asked isky to go away. dun disturb. haha..
woke up ard 11plus? den pack up the place a lil... aiyoyo... those gg china ar...
please learn to pack up! how can u leave the food outside?? omg... waiting for ants issit??

so one by one ppl woke up. i duno y i took a bath. haha... crazy.
we were gg to WWW lo...
had so much fun too!
even better den the previous visit..
but its two different kind of fun.. so i cant complain much rite?
we were so cold cos it was raining.
I have to compliment isky.
U ENDURE THOSE RIDES!! WELL DONE!!
And to kian n wa.
Pls la... jus becos u got big feet..tt's y u are all faster than mi!
And stop luffing at my eng! I like to b diff can?? haha...

had dinner at kfc wif yy, aza and wei an. not very nice lei...
the flour got sumthing wrong la..
haha...
Yi Xian showed up too!
so surprised!!
i sux at pool la...
cldnt go in a stra8 ball.
oh man...
so went back chalet slp slp. 1/2hr?
when i woke up.. isky said the most touching thing to mi.
which at first i tot he was crapping..
haha... onli when 1.8m pole tell mi again.. den i realise they were not crapping.
so i guess i sld slp more.
haha...

skated the whole nite la... n fell quite a no. of times..
was tired la.. so din join them for supper/breakfast at tamp..
i wanted to eat the korean bbq so much can!
but it had to open AFTER i bought my breakfast~
hais..

realli haf lots of fun !!!

bbq and pinic soon plsssssss!

butterfly fantasy at
6:56 PM